Evil Cry Book

As if I need HELP as a mom who recently delivered a baby and still has hormones raging everywhere - THIS book appeared on Buggy's book case!



Good grief!

I will be honest - I am still struggling a little with the change in relationship with Buggy.  It boggles my mind how he isn't the baby anymore.  It seems like just yesterday he was as tiny as Baby.  It's a good thing the boys have completely different temperaments or else I'd mix up their names all the time.

Tonight, I got to do bath and bedtime with Buggy by myself without a screaming baby in the room.  We took our time playing with the submarine in the bath.  We had a time-out when Buggy pulled my hair and kicked me as I tried to put a diaper on him.  We had another when he head butted my mouth while trying to get his pajama pants on him.  We had the sweetest snuggle time on the chair as he had his bottle.  I read THAT book to him (I think I am a glutton for punishment - but really - who writes books like this for new moms - just CRUEL!) as we rocked in the chair.  It took a long time to read.  I had to stop crying on several occasions.

As I went to put Buggy in his crib, I hugged him as we prayed together (normal ritual) but he wouldn't let go.  He just hugged me tight and patted my back. I think he was consoling me after I had cried  so much.

Goodness - I love my little man!  I was amazed tonight to see anew how I much I love both of my boys.  I love them in very different ways but I love them the same amount.  How is this possible?  How is it possible for our hearts to stretch like this?  Amazing!

As for depression - I will update again soon.  I am doing quite well at this point.  I do get overwhelmed by the awesome task I have to raise these boys in the way they should go.  I get overwhelmed with the incredible love I have for them.

From an Amazon review:
The mother sings to her sleeping baby: "I'll love you forever / I'll like you for always / As long as I'm living / My baby you'll be."