Fear -

I'll be honest - the past 2 days have been hard.  I have struggled with a lot of fear.  I heard so much about the full moon and a lot of how more babies are born under a full moon.  I also wasn't feeling quite like myself (looking back, it was most likely just something I ate that didn't sit well). 

I found myself spiraling into a mess of fear.  I was frightened of delivering period.  Frightened of delivering this early (35 weeks 3 days).  Frightened of what life as a family of four would hold.  Frightened of delivering a sick/too small baby.  Frightened of the logistics of a delivery right before finals week where Hubby teaches.  Frightened of every ache, pain, movement, lack of movement....  The list could keep going and going!

Thankfully, we don't need to be fearful.  A wonderful friend of mine (whose due date is within days of mine!) reminded me that our God is awesome and powerful.  He created the moon.  He created the lunar cycles.  He alone determines what affect these cycles have on each of us.  His timing is perfect.  He has this little baby in His hands.  When He says the time is right is when we will get to meet our little man.  He has a perfect plan for our lives.

I was reminded by another fabulous friend about the normal hormonal fluctuations during pregnancy and how we do not need to be bound by them.  We can rise above those fluctuations with God's help.   It is hard to not worry - it is so natural to worry as a parent!

His mercies are new every morning.  Praise God!  He has brought me through the spiral of fear into greater faith and understanding of His love.  Now, knowing my feeble human mind will revert to the fear again and again.  Thankfully, I can keep turning that fear over to the One who knew how many hairs were on Baby's head before the world was even created.

How do you battle fear?